The days are getting longer, the farmer's market has opened, the children are getting restless... all signs that spring is here, and that summer is fast at its heels. There is less than seven weeks of school remaining. After that, three weeks until my term of service is over.
Holy crap.
I have no idea what I'm doing next. I moved up here with the express intention of starting a children's theatre, and I still want to do that. Unfortunately, that won't pay the bills right away. I've been looking for jobs here, in Seattle, and all over, and there's not much out there.
This is the kind of things that give me nightmares. I hate major changes in my life, and I hate not knowing what the plan is.
What I do know is this:
I love working with kids
I love theatre
I love books
I love Washington state, my family and friends, and the whole Pacific Northwest attitude
So, if I can't find a job at a theatre, maybe I can get a job in a bookstore? Or a library? I really don't have any sort of "recession-proof" job skills. Not very good with computers, and I am definitely not skilled in the construction trade - which the radio always tells me is the best job market.
I have come to the realization that I might not find a job which includes all of those things. I have found some jobs out of state that sound amazing. I am applying for jobs that don't have anything to do with theatre. But I worry, if I keep saying "someday I will have a job that makes me completely happy," what happens if that someday never comes?
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I know what you mean, Rosie. I think about that too. I mean, I'm teaching middle school - not having anything to do with theatre. While I am grateful to have a job.... I sometimes think - what am I doing? I guess we just have to trust that things will happen when it's time?....
ReplyDeleteI have this horrible fear of being 60, looking back on my life, and wondering when I gave up on my dreams.
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